Never Alone.....

Barlow Girl Never Alone

In case you haven't ever heard this song, I have pretty much adopted it as my song for right now lol.  I love Barlow girl for one but the words of the song are true for me.  i know they aren't intended to be about a person but it brings dual purpose for me.  it reminds me to draw strength when and where i should be but does remind me he is here (both of them).  here's the words in case you just wanna read them but the song is cool and has a good beat to it too. 

"Never Alone"

I waited for you today
But you didn't show
No no no
I needed You today
So where did You go?
You told me to call
Said You'd be there
And though I haven't seen You
Are You still there?

[Chorus:]
I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel You by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I"m never alone

And though I cannot see You
And I can't explain why
Such a deep, deep reassurance
You've placed in my life

We cannot separate
'Cause You're part of me
And though You're invisible
I'll trust the unseen

[Chorus]

We cannot separate
You're part of me
And though You're invisible
I'll trust the unseen



SO this has been a busy and big week for us.  we all went to the mountain house for the weekend just to get awway and see people, hopefully this will be my last trip for a LONG time.  still working out the house IE i got nothing yet lol.  hopeing for a renter or a buyer soon. I know all the "bible" answers that God has a plan and it will happen in his timeing and yadda yadda yadda.  though all good reminders....i say them in my sleep.  sometimes we just have to smile and say GOD YOU KNOW THIS IS HARD FOR ME.....so anyways I am doing my best to try to give it to him. no its not easy.  yes i have lots of trouble with it.

Here are some cute mountain pics for those that missed them.   Noah is growing up far to fast.  i asked my mom when he grew up she said it always happens yesterday....which...is SO TRUE.  though sometimes i want to do unspeakable things....JUST KIDDING....i absolutely love the little man he is becoming.  he really is very sweet and caring with a slight devious nature i am having to monitor very closely lol.  Christian is very sweet and laidback....as long as he has the people he wants around. lol that boy is going to be trouble when he gets older...he does have to be IN THE MIDDLE and at the center of attention! it isn't enough to see us...we have to see HIM!  Noah is much more one on one that christian has to be.  both are scary smart though!  they miss their daddy a lot too.  Noah has to kiss my phone which has a picture of daddy on it and say night to him every night and every mornign and randomly throughout the day too.  its adorable.  i can not wait until this is over.  its crazy. 

Nannie had her second surgery today.  i know so many prayers were said for her and its amazing because this went so well.  no ICU, no trouble....NOTHING yet....still praying of course but by far WAAAAAAAAAY better than last time, however JOSH GOT TO CALL ME because of this!  i was stunned when the phone had his name on it!  my first htought however was panic becuase I thought something was wrong.  it didn't even dawn on me that they would let him call for this.  i didn't even know if he knew the actual date!  UGH i honestly have NEVER CRIED SO HARD IN MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  GOD bless the drill sergeant for letting him call me.  he even got to say goodnight to noah which i know was a blessing for ALL of us. 

Its amazing what a situation like this will do to Love.  honestly....i have completely revolutionized my view of love, marriage, relationships, and why we have so many issues these days.  I in now way believe that my marriage was in trouble or was bad in any way shape or form, but i will admit that over the last few years since everything started getting weird there have been a few things left to be desired.   I can really see (now being where I am) how so many people get into serious trouble in their relationships and how quickly it can become a big problem and why we have so many divorced couples and sad marriages.....and i know this may sound crazy....but i believe a lot of it has to do with the dawning of our instant communication age.  now i am as guilty as the next person to be a text queen...i have had many people comment on my ability to text at lightning speed, but seriously people, put the phone down.  we have so many quick forms of communication that we lost the ability to truly talk to people and communicate!  we chit chat but whens the last time you got a love letter? whens the last time someone professed to you and undying devotion....well i can say mine was today but this is what has made me realize that we are doing a disservice to our own marriages but forgetting about a simple pad and pencil.  you know they do still sell stamps....and if you don't wanna do that slip it in a lunch box, put it on the drivers seat before they leave for work or drag the kids to school/dance/the store WHEREVER....put it on the pillow next to them if you leave first....i bet you if you all adopt this letter writting again...we might have a few more marriages like those of years past from 30/40/50 years ago when they HAD to write letters GASP because phones where special...my marriage will never be the same after this and yes I know the army is different and WHATNOT (sorry this one is for josh when he finally reads this in few months lol)  but honestly letters revolutionized my marriage and i can't wait for 56 days to have a new beginning to the most wonderful man i know.

take my challenge...one letter a day for a week.  put down the phone....see what happens :0)