SO its been a few days since I posted, ok well a week lol, most of you are probably thinking ok her life was crazy (it still is just so you know) and she has a lot going on....ok i lied most of you are probably not even thinking about these things...but I AM! To tell you the truth other than the fact that I miss josh TERRIBLY and May can NOT get her soon enough i am doing pretty good. things are looking good for the house right now to probably rent it out as long as a few things finish falling into place which i am happy about, and I am doing my best to keep busy. last week Brittany brooke (her step daughter) and Mandy (her sister) and all my crazy crew went to the zoo...ill put some pics up of that at the end...we had so much fun...noah even fed the girraffe! he loves animals A LOT! i wonder what he will do when he grows up! Christian is trying to crawl...its not there yet but he sure is deteremined! life is moving...slowly some days, average others...nothing is fast but it is moving! i realized today that I LOVE being a stay at home mom. i really really really do. I feared that I would lament not having as much going on or that i wouldn't have enough to do or as many miss the adult conversation but in reality there is MORE than enough for me to do every day, especially since I pretty much have to do my best to keep my house as perfect as it can be with a 2.5 year old and an almost 8 month old just in case someone wants to see it...i sat down a fewminutes ago to write this and my first thought was i can't WAIT to get to california so that I can not get upset if i need to run an errand and my house isn't almost perfect....i mean I know that its ok if your house isn't alwasy clean on a normal day to day basis however that simply ISN"T true when trying to sell your house....and you even feel bad for doing freaking LAUNDRY! crazy isn't it?! i actually don't mind cleaning i don't mind dishes or laundry I don't mind taking out the trash or even vacuuming because that IS MY JOB now and I LOVE IT! i think i only used to hate those things because i had so many other things to do that they were just ONE MORE THING to do. I am SO looking forward to being out on my many adventures with josh and my kids and making them my only priority (NExt to God that is...he is the first one....) but its such a wonderful feeling to know that I CAN do my job and do it well. i do like cleaning because when I am done I can be proud of what my house looks like but it will be nice to relax a little and not get frusterated when noah tears apart the toy box yet AGAIN today....on the flip side its a GREAT thing that noah is a SUPER HELP! he as so many other kids his age THRIVES on the good attention and praise. he is hilarious....9/10 times he does things the first time i ask and as soon as he completes the task if I don't jump to it first he will come to me and say....momma proud me? its the sweetest thing EVER and of course i LOVE to tell him that I am proud of him because he giggles and runs off and it makes my heart happy to know that I have such a sweet child. he has such a neat little brain and a big heart. he is now really getting into reading books and some of it is not wanting to go to bed i am sure but loves to sit and have me read....he also loves to "read back to me" too. though its more him saying random words and sounds that he knows but its HILARIOUS! his favorite is the Icky Sticky Frog.....soooo funny. i will try to upload the video (my computer has been fighting me on this lately) Christian changes every day and i just love to watch his expressions. Sadly its taken me close to 3 years to realize the full joy of my kids...i will admit working killed that for me...i have alwasy loved my kids and loved being a nurse and i do not intend on letting that go however for the first time in years i feel like i am settled in my job or career choice. God has always provided for me and for my family as i know he will continue to do so however its these litle realizations i thank him for. I know he put me through some of this to make me appreciate this life that I now get to enjoy and really really really do. my heart was screaming for this and though yes I have frusterating days when the kids won't nap or are crying or the cat is driving me nuts buy escaping the back yard and running like a fool (they are INDOOR cats) but I love my new life....i really really do. so now that i have bored most of you (becasue I am SHOCKED at how many times these pages have been viewed! thanks for making me feel loved! ) i will now show you cute pictures from the zoo! PS josh is doing well! he is getting into the routine as he said his body is Adjusting to all th excercise...he LOVES the team building excercises and all the crazy climbing repelling hanging gun shooting ect that he gets to do. I am so proud to now call myself an Army wife...it really is something else I have to say....i am proud of my husband and the changes that he has already made....can't wait to have him back!
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