Baby Mine

Well in light of mothers day i feel a need to post another random blog.  the Events of the last few weeks have taught me many things but upon reaching this monumental holiday that so many cherish and so many long to celebrate on their own i feel the need to express a few things.  First off, i realize how lucky i am.  i am SO incredibly luck to have two SMASHINGLY wonderful boys who are so sweet and full of life and entertainment that love me and are learning so much.....I am BLESSED to be able to now stay home with them and be that center person for them to depend on and teach them and love them.  of course there is my awesome husband too, whom is still currently off learning how to be an even greater man than we know him to be whom i couldn't me MORE proud of.  but i have been reflecting on my life and my goals and i have realized through this whole experience that you really really really really NEVER grow out of your parents...i mean to some extent you know that and realize it but its so huge sometimes...it comes down to the little things that make the biggest difference like a family crisis health emergency when everyeone's lives stop for one lil boy and they don't question it or even try to do anything but do anything and everything they can to help with no question, or coming to mow the lawn because well i honestly have NEVER started a lawn mower before in my life! or even coming at 9 at night with a bag full of 9v batteries to change 9 fire detectors because one is beeping and driving me mad...without question, without hesitation, and without even asking....actually quite the opposite....forcefully (with love) doing so and not taking no for an answer....just because they can.  Its the little things like turning around and my trash cans have been emptied or light bulbs changed or vents changed and cleaned just because he can....mommies and daddies never also outgrow wanting to be helpful and needed and appreciated...its what we are made to do and because of that desire i have seen in my own self i now more understand my parents desire to do so for me...to say they are wonderful parents doesn't do them justice.  there really is NO way for me to properly describe how i feel about them other than to say if when my children are grown they love me half as much as i love my parents then i will be one lucky girl (of course i would love to say they will love me the same lol but you know what i mean) it certainly drives me daily to be more like my mom to think about the little things, to enjoy the time they want with me, to make the MOST out of EVERY experience they can have because you NEVER know what life will throw at you.  You never know what tomorrow will bring and in light of my new and upcoming life and family change to the life style of the Army, i fully intend on making the most out of every moment they get with me and josh.  I want them to love life, and love experiencing new things and be able to look back and say we made things fun and as good as we could.  I am so blessed to have my family, my children, my parents and grandparents, most days when i think about it I realize just how un deserving i am of such love from my own parents much less God who loves us more...and if I feel that way about my own parents i can't IMAGINE the love he has for me...its overwhelming....so to the GREATEST example of motherhood i know...THANK YOU....i will say LIKEWISE to my daddy for his examples for my boys and my husband too but we will save that for next month on fathers day :0)  hopefully my own "babies daddy" lol will be with me as i write this too...even if it will be just for the day. 

all my reasons to celebrate such a great day.  HAPPY MOTHERS DAY TO ALL!!!!!!!!!